About Me and How I Found A Way To Kill Depression….

 

Hi! My name is Thea Hall and I am going to tell my story on how I beat depression that had been hounding me for years.

I am telling this story so you believe that you too, can overcome depression even it has been hounding you for years. Just like I did; and like many others before me did, too. History is full of great people who have fought depression, conquered it and lived a full and happy life. I am sharing with you my experience because I know that the first thing a depressed person needs to do is to believe that it is possible. Yes, it is possible to beat depression. I did it and you can do it, too.

I was only 22 when I realized that depression is an integral part of my life. I was often so depressed that getting out of the bed was an effort. There was nothing that I looked forward to, nothing that excited me, nothing that made me feel happy. I was against drugs from childhood and hence, I shunned anti-depressants.

My suffering continued for more than a decade and then I met a most wonderful man – Phil. Falling in love suddenly gave a new meaning to my life. I had a reason to live for, to get up in the morning, to welcome a new day. My courtship period – all the 16 months of it – were the most beautiful days of my life. I got married to this wonderful man and bang, the depression came back like a long lost friend.

Two wonderful children were born almost one after another and my depression worsened. Motherhood, financial problems, my inability to cope as well as I would have liked – all these contributed heavily to my depression. Everybody was saying that we were one beautiful happy family – and all I could think of is when would the day end so I could be alone with the night. I was depressed, depressed, depressed.

Phil tried his best to help and one day he got a cognitive therapist home. This man knew exactly what I felt. He talked to me and I felt like I was seeing myself in the mirror. He taught me that certain – minimum – medication is important to take to correct the chemical imbalance in the body and had me take a few anti-depressants. But what made all the difference is the way he taught me to recognize negative thoughts and replace them with positive ones. Positive thinking does help. It makes ALL the difference.

It is like weeding a garden and replacing weeds with flowers. After a while you will find a beautiful garden in the place of weeds. What keeps most people depressed is a deep feeling of unworthiness, low self-esteem, and inability to love oneself. But you ARE worthy, you are No.1 in someone life and you should love yourself. Through cognitive therapy I learned to chase away negative thoughts and negative feelings and replace them with positive thoughts and feelings.

It is like weeding a garden and replacing weeds with flowers. After a while you will find a beautiful garden in the place of weeds. What keeps most people depressed is a deep feeling of unworthiness, low self-esteem, and inability to love oneself. But you ARE worthy, you are No.1 in someone life and you should love yourself. Through cognitive therapy I learned to chase away negative thoughts and negative feelings and replace them with positive thoughts and feelings.

It was not easy. Nothing good ever is easy. But the journey was well worth the trouble. It was tough for me to learn to let go of the negative thoughts that continuously told me I was no good, that I did not deserve better, that I not worthy of anyone’s love.

It was difficult to start loving myself. That, I think has been the hardest. I could let go of the negative thoughts, I could stop the negative feelings but to love myself, to enjoy the love others gave me took a lot of time. I am off medication now, but I won’t hesitate taking some if I feel the need. Nothing wrong with medication for depression; just as it is nothing wrong popping a pill for a headache or fever. It helps removing the symptom so you could focus on the inherent problems, which is often too many bottled up negative thoughts.

It is 5 years now that I have not had any serious issues with depression. I still get the blues every now and then, but that is nothing compared to what I lived with for years before I conquered depression. For me cognitive therapy worked. I learned to recognize harmful thoughts and stop them before they overcame and paralyzed my mind. It is like I was handed a special gun with which I could kill the demons that plagued my mind. Once I learned that it is possible, there was no looking back.

Depression is a state of mind just as happiness is. It is easy to say, you need to choose which one you should be – it is not so easy to do it. But with cognitive therapy you can learn to do just that – to move away from all negativity and live a normal and happy life. I could do it and you could do it as well. Believe!

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